This has not been a great year. Lots has happened, including a traumatic 6 months with a charity group that has seen me all but driven away from my sewing community, had someone monitor my online presence, and had strangers speaking about me like I was a criminal.
That I can deal with …. and I am. Its frustrating, but it won’t affect me for long.
But …. I feel so very powerless right now. Because my mother is suffering, and while I can help in small increments ….. I can’t make things all that much better.
Mum has been caring for her parents, for 20+years. Encouraged on by her siblings (family politics are savage) my grandparents have moved back to their home town, taking everything in the house, leaving mum the cost and work of finalising and cleaning the rental, and then demanded the bond. All she got was her personal stuff, and the few bits of furniture that they let her bring into the house …. and then only because my sister refused to let them take it. They have left her with nothing and homeless. She is staying with my brother, but its a massive blow to her self esteem, to be so rejected and savagely treated by her own mother.
And today, the government department instead of transferring her from the carers pension to the aged pension ….. just cancelled her pension, including her health benefits card. She has no money, no medications, and she is living in her son’s back pocket.
I can make sure she eats. I can make sure she has enough for her smokes, even if I think she needs to give them up. My siblings and I can save up to get her a new place to live, and buy her the furniture and stuff she will need. She doesn’t want much, a caravan big enough to live in, in a small country village not far from my sister’s place. Something small, that she can call her own, in a community that she can fit in to. She wants to stand on her own feet, look after herself, and do things for herself for a change, but it seems like the universe has it out for her. I can do nothing for the crushing despair she is feeling, at the loss of her independence, at being stepped on by her own family and now the government …… And I am a long way away.
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