I have been avoiding thinking about stuff today …….. any stuff. Not thinking about school tomorrow for the kids, not thinking about lunches, not thinking about job offers ……. I have just been successfully not thinking about very much today.
I couldn’t really figure out why it was so necessary to be so Blah! today ….. then it hit me tonite.
Tomorrow is the first day of the school year ….. for Nathan and Naomi. Nothing unusual, its all old hat for them.
Today should have been the first day at school for Isabeau. I should have been at school, getting all weepy about my baby going off to school. I should be watching a tiny child go off, with a bag thats too big for her, in a uniform that hangs off her (just like her big sister), and a hat thats wider than her shoulders.
Instead its a big empty Blah!
