Category Archives: Isabeau

Hello my darling daughter.   I bet you thought I forgot.  That I had finally listened to all those who say I should be “over you”, and move on. There is no doubt, that I don’t feel the same sort … Continue reading →

Another year ….. it seems to go so fast. The day passes without comment now. I don’t expect the children to remember, there is no need for them to linger in sadness ……today is mostly for me. Its been 4 … Continue reading →

There are plenty of us that have lost a child. A precious gift that we only get to hold for a short time ….. sometimes only minutes. Many don’t understand the mind numbing grief that overwhelms us. Or that we … Continue reading →

I thought this would have to happen at some point.  Nathan was very young (3) when Isabeau died, and while we included him in the grieving process, we didn’t think that he would remember all that much of the experience. … Continue reading →

I have been avoiding thinking about stuff today …….. any stuff. Not thinking about school tomorrow for the kids, not thinking about lunches, not thinking about job offers ……. I have just been successfully not thinking about very much today. … Continue reading →

Well its come around again …… the end of November. Trying my best to keep this happy face going for miss nearly 15, because I don’t want to ruin her birthday. My levels are low, and so all these negative … Continue reading →

I think my subconscious is telling me that I need to let go my yearning for babies.

The longer it is, the harder it is to imagine what might have been.   Isabeau would have been 9 years old this year.   I try to imagine my tiny little girl as a 9 year old, and all I see … Continue reading →