Ecstatic and terrified ….. all at the same time !!!!

After my many, many ….. many problems with my health, struggling with my hormones, coping with my girly works becoming so unreliable that it was making me ill all the time. After fighting peri-menopause, struggling to fall pregnant and failing, and facing the fact of no more children. And after fighting doctors tooth and nail for the last 2 years for some sort of definative answer. After all that ….. today I finally got an answer.

After moving here, I decided to try again, and so I saw a new gyno today. The poor man looked at the novel sized pile of documentation I gave him, and looked more than a little startled. I was a little more forceful with what I wanted from him …… a hysterectomy. He listened to me, asked some questions …. and showed a great deal of shock when I told him the opinions of my previous gyno’s. He quizzed me about my hormonal issues, which I was a little reluctant to mention, for fear that he would insist I try chemical control methods (yet again).

And finally he looked at me and said … “Well obviously its a no brainer. I feel the best management would be a complete hysterectomy and estrogen implant”. Not only is he going to give me the hysterectomy I wanted, but he offered to remove my ovaries, therefore removing the major cause of the other symptoms that I have suffered for nearly 20 years.

I stood at the reception desk to pay my bill, and I was shaking. I held it together until we got outside his rooms …… and then I had a good cry on hubby’s shoulder. This is what I have wanted for years. I have a chance of being able to have a normal like life, and quite possibly, some of the PCOS features in my health will be gone.

So …. in a little over 2 weeks time, I will have my mum here to look after me, and I will be starting the next phase of my life. I am scared, but incredibly happy.
Is it possible to be both?

Mothers Day

Well, I have to say that this mother’s day has been lovely, but probably not what hubby wanted to do. We have been so busy, with moving in, sorting out the house, kids etc …. and just generally freezing our bits off …… that he really hasn’t had time to organise anything.

I did receive one thing from my little boy, that hubby thought was memorable enough to blog. Mr6 wrote me a poem, which is now stuck on the fridge.

Mum I love you because: …………………..
* you buy me dessert
* you make up jokes
* you are beautiful
* you are like the sun
* you are like a berry in a tree (apparently I am sweet)
* you are lovely like the stars in the sky

Mr6 watched me read this, and then I put it onto the fridge. He looked at me and asked me, “Did it make you cry?” I have to admit it did a bit, but I just told him that it made me feel very special. He was very pleased with himself.

Canberra Update

Well as you can imagine things have been a little hectic. I have started work, the kids have started school and Dani has already put her name down to help tuckshop and the P&C. Only got my broadband back yesterday, man talk about withdrawal. 😀

Work is crazy as usual, but at least I am busy. Seems like my old area is still trying to find enough work for all their people.

The kids are really liking their new schools and both seem to be making friends easily. My daughter is continuing with her Japanese and my boy just loves the new schools playground.

I have some shots of the new house etc more will be coming.

Canberra House